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Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Highlands. Chapter 4. The ethnic origins.

       And I'm condescending again to those who still didn't do the two principal steps upwards. Or who have done one, but hasn't made aware of this, taking the sound of his soul's strings as a whim or as an idle fun. But the cause of their confusion differs from those who were confused by stranger beliefs. This time I am going to console those, who is confused by people from other ethnic origins.
       The nationality is a one of human's integrations. Whom Jesus named as the dearest humans, even who was dearer than the near relations? I am reminding: so He named His pupils, and to be more precise, His like-minded, that are the brothers in faith, who listened Him and learnt voluntarily. But He had ranked at the second place His relatives in the flesh, indicating at the followers and saying: "And he stretched forth his hand toward his disciples, and said, Behold my mother and my brethren!" (Matth. 12:49).
       Certainly, among the relatives in the flesh these are natural: the love, the compassion, the participation and the mutual assistance. But if your relative has walked away from the verity, you may take care of him but don't follow him. If the stay together at the same home leads to the quarrels - leave him and avoid the meetings. Don't worry about him, because sooner or later everyone will come up on the Top. And now thank Lord, if you aren't in disagreement, but only the related love and the mutual assistance.
       The more distant relatives are - the more is their number - this is a simple arithmetic. And here just imagine we have glanced over a large crowd of the fellow tribesmen, they are distant relatives regarding each other.
       And finally we are examining the most distant relatives, so, that one may consider them as strange persons practically, though they aren't, because all the peoples are descended from Adam and Eve. However they are distant to such a degree that somebody living in another land can be found nearer in the flesh, than a so-called countryman.
       What have we seen in the first case? - A spiritual brotherhood of the like-minded persons.
What have we seen in the second case? - The near relatives in the flesh.
What have we seen in the third case? - A large crowd of the fellow tribesmen.
And what have we seen in the last case? - Just a crowd. A nation is a crowd. A crowd possessing in more or less degree general habits and a definite territory is well-established historically which can be extensive very much.
       Thus if your state embracing within itself a human community you name it as your nation, if its government incites you to a war against another human community, are you sure that you will not fight with someone closer in the relationship, battling for interests of someone more distant? Are you sure that you will not fight against someone closer in spirit, battling for the interests of your ideological enemies? Is it pardonable to commit the murders for the interests of persons of the common territory without ascertaining who is closer in spirit for you? Will not you kill friends for the sake of the interests of your enemies?
       You are putting into service to commit the murders, but before have you found out who is right? Is your war holy? Is it going to uphold the eternal verities: God, the Love, the Truth, the Liberty? Or is your idol against these things? If you are at war, because otherwise some people will blame you, then you act against Christ. And if you think of yourself such brave you can be at war, why do not you turn the weapon against those who incites you to the grave sins and crimes? After all, it would seem, it is alike dangerous, so is not it better to perish in the holy war like a just man, than risk your precious life under the satanic banners? Just your mind becomes blind by the idolatry of "motherland", the party, the nation, the organization.
       So, throw out the idols and seek what comes from your God: the Same God, the Love, the Verity, the Liberty. And if it is impossible without war, then fight for them, and if it is impossible avoid the bloodshed, then do not shed blood in vain, neither your one, nor one of the others. And if you seek the Verity in all sincerity and your soul is singing, you will be higher than any nationality, because even if a crowd climbs high, however there is a limit for it, beyond this limit one can climb only alone. And you would be very lucky, if you meet a fellow traveller who is seeking the same Peak, clambering up through the majestic slopes of the Highland.
       There are the peoples who have risen quite high. One of these peoples who has risen high, the Chechens are, because, although they don't trust that Jesus was crucified, but they obey His commandments, to love God and neighbours. It is a little of places on the Earth, where you would find such a mutual assistance and such a backing among the people. But in the flesh they are more distant relatives each other, than a nation.
      There are well in India certain communities of believers who has risen high, because they tolerate all religions and they would hinder lesser, than all the others, to make the second step in the Highland.
      The English speaking countries have risen very high. The tradition of hiding their hearth from the curious and disapprobatory eyes in the combination with the Protestant ethics, these circumstances have raised these peoples at maximum height, it is very unlikely any crowd could be rising higher. And the strongest country among them, that is America (USA), it observes the human rights across the Earth, but make an idol never, even from this country. If America doesn't exist, it's quite probable the influence on the humanity some evil and barbarian state would exert, which would succeed become the strongest. Then everywhere only the tyrants and the oppressors of freedom would feel free and they would mistreat their nationals as they think fit, and nobody then would dare to call to order them, saying: "You are disturbing the human rights!" And before unheard-of lawlessnesses would increase across the Earth, then, and many of these, who is reading these lines now, would want to die at the wrong time, being under unlimited yoke.
       Therefore pray to your Lord He would save America, but only under conditions, that this great country continues to observe these great verities, such as God, the freedom, the Truth, the Love, because these verities don't issue from any country, but only from the Most High. Because a state may be either a keeper of them, or a robber of these Divine treasures. The prayer is appropriate only for the keeper. But don't make an idol from the keeper. One ought not worship any state - it would be an idolatry. To worship a nation, a crowd - it is an idolatry too. "Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and him only shalt thou serve".
       And don't render a final judgment concerning any nation. By that you are taking away from yourself the freedom to be born in the next life among the nation you are judging.
       And understand what would be available to understand even for a fool: not your belonging to a nationality, but the choice you will do will determine your situation in the Highland or outside of it.
       Remember, if you choose to live as all the people around you, then you will get dirty from all the sins and the crimes of the crowd, which you have imagined as you are a part of it. Because an ideal nationality doesn't exist, a fruit of which would be the El Dorado on the Earth, and every nationality has its own defect. Or aren't your own sins enough for you?
       If you are at war, protect those who are near and dear to you, then your war will be a holy one. But in which connection is here a nationality, that is a crowd?
       If you are at war from your own convictions, for your faith, then your war will be a holy one, while you are struggling for the Freedom, but in which connection is here a nationality, that is a crowd?
       If you are at war because a crowd wants it, then it would difficult to find some sin more grave, and the retribution for it is close. This would be the same thing as to tease a tiger, being hanging on a thin rope. And if the enemy of human souls needs to push you down into the Noisome Ravine with streams of a the stinking boiling water and banks of a decomposing carrion, then where is it more convenient to do it, as at unjust war you fight? But if your war is holy one and it was impossible to avoid it, then you are higher than all the communities are, every your loss in this war will cover a multitude of your sins, and no death for you, but only an interrupting of an interesting game you name "the life"and want to see up it to the end.
       Remember, if you have done two steps up in the Highland, you are above all the nationalities on the Earth and no longer have anything to do with the earthly crowds. And there is just a little bit who higher than you, either those who is walking up or who are enlightened and have reached. You and your brothers and sisters in spirit, all those who have done two steps up, who hearing the new Song, have recognized their close souls in all the ends of the Earth - you are the only supreme Nationality, regardless of the color of your skin and of your nationality, and the rest of the population are crowds.
      Don't be afraid and don't be embarrassed of the silly crowds, because of their understanding they are close to the animals. And if they are found in opposition to you, remember that they are merely as the slow-witted children, and one day they will be found on your height, when they will have grown in spirit, then they will go to the Peak, and it is unknown who of you will arrive there the first. Here is why the our Lord Jesus Christ prayed for them when they crucified Him. Because every human unit is a potential, is a seed, which will have grown sooner or later.
       If you are seeking, a silly crowd may not lead you. A silly crowd, you name as a nationality, cannot be a subject of imitation and an object of worship. However high a crowd would have risen, it is only a crowd. They will braird, but they are only still not sprouted seeds. If you have close relatives - love them and take care of them, but don't learn to live in their opinion, if you know how. If you have sprouted, the seeds are not an authority for you.
       If the strings of your soul are capable to sound, it is time for you to separate from the crowd, if not physically go away, then although mentally.  Get away from them mentally and, being silent, be searching from aside the human crowd, how stupid it is, the crowd who thinks in the only way and is standing still in the same place. They are fools who are trying to live and to think like all around, because of this they develop neither mentally, nor in spirit, and they need in large troubles to lead them from the numbness.
       Any nationality is a crowd. But one who is thinking and seeking - he doesn't belong to any crowd anymore and is free from all the nationalities.

Next chapter: http://antisovietique.blogspot.ru/2013/03/highland-chapter-5-sexual-preferences.html
       
       
     
       

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Highlands. Chapter 3. Religions.

       What is hindering you, oh my brother or sister in planet Earth and in clan of the humanity, to leave for this travel? What does spread doubts and fears in your soul? What has kept your feet and hindered strings of your soul to echo the beautiful song which you are going to suppress?
       I've unraveled fears and doubts of the most part of brothers and sisters in planet: the fundamental fear is to follow a human in another faith.
       But have I ever said that you change your faith? That is faith in Single God, one of you names Him as Allah, other names Elohim, someone names Him as Absolute, others names Brahman, someone names as Jesus, others as Krishna. Many peoples call many names of Single God, but you have better call Him by name which is in keeping with your own faith.
       Did I invite you to follow my footsteps, as a bloodhound? Did I say that I shall arrive on the Peak without fail before than you? All the believers will arrive on the Peak sooner or later where they are waited for always, they will arrive on the Peak where they will be fated to make the last jump to the state of their mind which the Hindus name as Samadhi and Jesus named as Borning again. Don't ask what will be there, but believe God and His great Prophets who affirmed the veritable happiness is only there. You may ask me: "What is the last stop, above which a bus cannot rise and one can continue the way only by walk alone, where it is dangerous and one must hold to his faith as to hold on to a handrail, and where the higher to climb, the more beauty opens up before, approaching to the Peak?"
       I am answering you: it is not only one bus stop, not only one area where a crowd gathers and cannot go higher. There are a lot of them; their number as much as beliefs are there on the Earth and this bus stops are the churches or gatherings of believers named in any different way.
       There are a lot of them, they are found in the different levels, but even the highest of them are still a long way from the main Top, because any crowd has a limit, which higher it is not able to rise. Because any crowd is stupid, and this truth is urgent for all the peoples and for all the epochs.
       If so it was not, one didn't pelt stones at the Propfets, eulogizing them in a few of the centuries. If so it was not, the Earth never would be involved in the apocalyptic fire of the totalitarianism whose adepts named themselves proudly as communists and as national socialists and even they were at war each other, however in fact they professed the same devilish doctrine ranking the crowd higher than an individual.
       And they were terrible these fruits of the doctrine ranking the crowd higher than an individual. Because God had ranked high up the human, higher than all the angels were ranked, what excited the envy in the fallen angel, who was named in some countries as Lucifer, in another as Iblis. And he had become a God's enemy, that is Satan. And a part of the angels he took away together who became evil spirits. And they used those humans who chose the crowd's power instead the Power universal, that is Divine Power. Then in their tyranny and their evil deeds these men surpassed all the tyrant and the miscreants of the past Dark centuries, and these tyrants and their obsequious associates killed many tens of millions of human beings, turning the rest into a herd of cattle, who are like human being only outwardly, and a few of those who wanted to climb higher and sought the verity, it was given them to see in the right perspective what is going on and to be terrified.
       And Satan's agents had changed the Single God worship, they had changed it into the worship of wrong idols and images. In comparison with those wooden and stone idols and statues which are seeming as droll and innocuous, these monuments and mummies gave the innumerable disasters to the humanity. And the factories of death worked round the clock and longer time than a year; and the banners of the devil's upholders were scarlet as blood colour. But didn't warn the Apostle John the Theologian about the scarlet beast? Didn't he warn about the red dragon? Here are they, the fruits of the atheism, unbelief! Here are they, the real infidels! But the fire of the totalitarianism still is not extinguished. It raged with blazing flame and now it is smouldering, smoking and even taking up persons, but now doing it in a smaller number. And if the XX century doesn't serve as a lesson for the stupid humanity, in any moment it can flame up again.
       But don't be afraid. The death cannot conquer the life. The darkness cannot conquer the light. These are the only manuals for the negligent pupils. These are hard sporting apparatuses not for the body, but for the soul. These are only shadows, accentuating the beauty of the Eternal Light, they are given to you for your edification you would value His good.
       Can one teach to love the freedom a negligent pupil in other way, than to imprison him? Think yourself. Don't grumble at your Lord and don't reproach Him for a severity. He had given you the greatest gifts: the conscience, the intellect, the intuition and many other things what you don't know about. But you had put off them and learn living from those who had made the same error.
       If you use your own mind, you would know that by this apocalyptic time it is possible to prove scientifically the being of the Conscious Original Cause, for Who had constructed the genetic code of the living cell? If an extraterrestrial genius had constructed it, Who had created the latter, then?
       And Who had adjusted the fundamental universal physical constants so exactly? The such these like the speed of light, the charge of electron or the gravitational constant. If they change a little, and no physical Universe could exist, however it exists. You can leave the question, but some day you will have to answer it.
       Therefore don't doubt in tour faith and don't afraid of "another's" religions. We see all things as through a  turbid glass, but all will clear when we will become enlightened.
       Don't judge a tree without tasting its fruits. Didn't Jesus teach this? Every religion has its own flaw. Otherwise we would see an El Dorado on the Earth, but we don't. All the peoples are sinful to a certain extent, there were wars everywhere, all broke the Divine precepts. All are sinful to a certain extent because they believe with the crowd, but the brutal crowd of the atheists stands apart of them, causing the devilish doctrines unprecedented before, and the fruits of these doctrines made the humanity to be terrified.
       And therefore stay in your faith, especially if it is in keeping with your soul, but not with the crowd surrounding you however beware the atheism and the idolatry. Don't worship of monuments and mummies, of abstract ideas like the "motherland", a state, a party, an organization - these are idols and the souls are not in keeping with them, that are the souls of those who are healthy spiritually.
       But everything what is in keeping with the souls of those who are healthy spiritually, whether this is bird's songs in a morning forest, coolness of a river or of a lake, a beautiful sunset in a warm evening in summer or a sunrise in a cool morning and a mist above the river, speeches of your friends or of your relatives are good genuinely, playful bodies of your beloveds, those of them who aren't dead in spirit, or your favorite song or something else - all what has forced you to hear that great new Song, all this because of what the strings of your soul sound, all this doesn't shed but only reflects that invisible Eternal Light, that Great Love incoming from your Lord. So be grateful Him, and He will not leave you and He has not on the Earth any representatives, but only the bearers of His goods because without them it would be difficult for you, almost impossible, to see Him, during you are in the condition of the spiritual infancy. Yet when you will be grown up and get stronger, then you will not need in all this, because why you will need in reflectors and bearers, while Himself shines for you, without them too, with the eternal inextinguishable light.
       And there is not His light in the false idols, but only the shadow. The strings of your soul will never sound because of a "motherland", a party (political - author's note), a state or of an organization, for there will take place a fools' and goats' praise, an obsequious fawning and a flattery, but there will be no this invisible light which comes from your Lord, but there where is no His light, there is the shadow, which is the same hell. Then you will drink a boiling water from a stinking brook, inhale a stench from banks which are strewn with decomposing carrion, a fools' praise will lull you, their flattery will soothe the pain of your soul, and one day you will wake up, be terrified and repent. Isn't better to do it now?
       Those whom you are sincere with, you complain them that you are bad, but being in public, you are feigning that all right because you are afraid don't hear the fools' praise, to which you've got accustomed, as to the opium. You are complaining that you are bad, so put an end walking along the infernal labyrinths, leave them.
       You may ask: "Where is the way out?"
       Stay alone, where nothing can distract you. Or stay in private with a human being, whom you may be sincere and frank as with yourself. If you both can be as alone, then only in such case you both may stay together. And while nothing distracts you, do the first step upstairs, look for that thing diligently, what can force your eyes to scintillate because of the tears of joy, and if while this nothing is destroyed, know: this is from God. And if you didn't trust in Him, ask  His pardon. And if you didn't trust in Him or you trusted not in Him, but you trusted in vain in a thing because of which your soul cannot sing,  then thank Him for the joy which He has given for you. You were blind and turned away from the light, but He shone for you and continues to shine.
       Maybe you had seen already His invisible shining, but you didn't recognize Him and had considered this as a whim? Before maybe, when the strings of your soul sounded, following a fools' advice you had considered this as a whim? He called you, but you had not recognized His voice, then, however now you know it.
       If the strings of your soul have started to sound and if while someone's life or health were not destroyed, then don't be embarrassed: you are on the right way. And if your joy is like the joy of King David and at the same time there isn't any bad fruit because of this, then your faith is veritable and no matter, what a temple you attend. And if your joy is like the joy of King David and nothing is destroyed in the same time, then you have risen one step higher, than the crowd of your co-religionists.
       Now remember: if in other end of the Earth, even in some other religion even in some different temple, if there is a person who has been able to hear the new Song and in the same time he has destroyed nothing, then he or she is your brother or your sister in faith, understanding this, you will do the second step higher. If you both do this SECOND STEP, you will never consider as infidels each other. A crowd may be infidel, but not your brother or your sister in faith. At best, a crowd can be infirm, that is underdeveloped in faith, at worst - a "synagogue of Satan" (Revelation 2:9).
       Recollect, Jesus preached one thing, but so-called priests - some other thing. And these were closer to God who listened Jesus in the street, but not the crowd what is standing in a temple. Because God is there where the verity is. Because where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. Because God is Love.
       Don't let your heart be troubled: if you are sincere in the seeking of the verity, but under a delusion, sooner or later your mistake will appear like a chip which risen to the surface of the lake, and then it will be as piece of cake to delete it, so, throwing out these falsehood one by one, you will approach to the Top.

Next chapter: http://antisovietique.blogspot.ru/2012/12/highland-chapter-4-ethnic-origins.html
     
     
                                            (to be continued)

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Highlands. Chapter 2. The new Song.

       But before leaving for the way, let your heart be more light. Pray to Single God Whom you trust in. And not be afraid. The way is dangerous, but the Great Guarding will guard you.
       Search stores of your memory. Seek in them all that is nice and dear for you.  Let your silent joy be rising. Take there from all able to help you out of the condition of  callousness and nonchalance. Pull all this till tears, not tears of sorrow, but tears of joy begin to scintillate on your eyes, reflecting the light is seen. And this will signify that the Holy Spirit has approached to you just as He approached to the king David. It will signify that in your soul the new Song has begun to sound, the great Song, which the saved are singing. That great new Song that you can't go without. And if you go without the Song, you will can't do even a step. It will seem that you are moving, but just you will set laughing those who is above and whom you still can't understand. They will see only you are pawing the ground, but continue to be standing on the same place.
       Force you hear this Song a prayer can do. Force you to hear this Song, worldly songs can do, these consonant with your soul. Force you hear this Song the bird's voices can do, which glorify God in rivalry in a morning spring forest, when the fresh verdure has come to replace the cold and white death and reminded of the eternal life and of the impossibility of destroying the own "I".
       Know: this great Song is the sound of the strings of your soul, which about, maybe, you guessed never, and if even you felt something, but could not account it, and the Song fell silent under condemnatory glares of the people in your environment.
       However those who were singing this Song, it is not they who were guilty of your loss. Even it was not those persons who laughed at yourself actually or in your fancy. But you yourself have turned away from what is lofty and holy. Turned away from the just One What is able to make you blissful. And now, it's maybe because of the loss, you sick with the body or are getting drunk with wine. Or the others getting drunk on the bottom of the Noisome Ravine who invite you: "Come down to us! We have a remedy for depression. Let's become oblivious together!" And you go after them humbly as a horse, which is leaded by the bridle, plunging deeper and deeper, to get to know all the circles of the hell, all the labyrinths of the underworld, for you have to singe your wings for awakening and seeking a way out.
       So now go out and look for something that would make to play the strings of your soul. You will ask: "What have I to look for?" However I've cited a few examples, but there are much more of them, than I've cited. There are as many of them as people there were, as many as people there are and there will be. It is because everyone's strings of the soul are tuned up in his own way, just one and unique. And so look for it till the resonance will snap into action when the strings of your soul will quaver, when the tears of joy will flash like pure diamonds on your eyes, when the Holy Spirit will approach to you and you will hear the Song, which cannot be rended by a human language, but by different languages unknown on the Earth, languages in which everyone would can say, but their interpretation is done only for those who have risen enough high.
       And if you have heard this Song, you have made the first step, only one step, however an important one, because it is the first one.
       Now remember: no one step can you make it these high mountains, if your soul is keeping silent.

Next chapter: http://antisovietique.blogspot.ru/2012/11/highland-chapter-3-religions.html
        

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Highlands. Chapter 1. A call of the way.

       You have taken this book in your hand. Don't ask my name, for it will tell you nothing. I'm not an angel, not a saint, but the same human as you are, who was born on the planet Earth in the most middle of the most violent and contrast twentieth century after Christ; born at sunrise when it was in the middle of the constellation of Cancer, and the Moon was being on the wane pursued the Sun, was behind it by two zodiac constellations; and the Moon was seen early in the morning, when the birds in the forests were not still waken, it was shining like the letter "C" on the morning sky.
       I invite you on a travel into a Country of the Highest Mountains, higher than the last station, where a bus can rise. However then you go on foot alone.
       There are certain laws in these mountains: one who is found lower, he can see another, who is above, not always, but even he sees him, all the same, he would not understand him.
       I believe, there is the highest Top in these mountains, it is higher than the Chomolungma is, and this faith is attracting me upwards.
       And the higher I climb, the more beauty opens up before me, and it strenghten my faith in the fact that I am on the right way.
       That's why I look with compassion at the crowd accumulated in the last stop, above which a bus cannot rise. They consider themselves to have reached the goal, and one will do all the rest instead them.
       Those, whose have reached the last stop, they believe too, that there is a Home on the highest Mountain where they are waited always, but as they haven't to go there by themselves.
       Certain of them is craving for this way, but it takes only to turn to look at the crowd - just he loses the assertiveness.
       Those who stand lower aren't able to understand those, who dare to climb higher, and call: "You are raging! There is dangerous! You have turned from the veritable way! You will fall into the Noisome Ravine! Listen us: we are right, because the number of us is large".
       And hearing them and believing them, one, who was on the point of setting out for the way, returns hanging his head, with downcast eyes, pronouncing with a feeling of guilt: "This is beyond my power. I've better to stand together with all the people".
       In fact he had some power, but he has lost it; believing that the most of the people are right always, he has lost his power.
       Certainly, this crowd can be useful, if it raises one, who is perishing in the Noisome Ravine, to its standard. The rescued, thank to them, would make a huge step forward, joining them. However, one, who is endeavouring to raise higher, he would make step back, not wanting to separate from the environment.
       AND NOT WANTING TO SEPARATE FROM AN ENVIRONMENT, IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO RAISE ABOVE THIS ENVIRONMENT, IN WHICH YOU ARE FOUND NOT SO MUCH BY THE WILL OF FATE, BUT HOW MUCH BY THE WILL OF YOUR OWN CHOICE.
       However you have taken this book in your hand, I invite you on a travel and don't hide that it is dangerous. That is why offer up your prayer to Single God what you trust in, let not me, not someone else but only He would stand guard over you. Believe Him and He will not leave you and will not let you be lost on the way, which He has predestined for you.
       Because if you ask: "what good is it for me?" and are staying on the same level which you have reached, then the more you will stay on it, the more an inexplicable anguish will oppress you. And whatever good things in the life you've reached, they would please you during two-three month but you will get accustomed quickly to it and have desire of anything greater. You get something greater and it will be pleasing you not long with a beautiful shining, then it reduced to dust. AND ONE DAY YOU WILL UNDERSTAND THAT YOU MISS THE ESSENCE.
       You are seen standing in the same place, uninvited guests in the form of minor ills and troubles will start to visit you. However if you continue to make mistakes, your uninvited guests will return to you, every time increasing in size, taking more and more frightening appearance and they will not retreat. This will continue as long as you don´t go out of your delusion, until you will see all the horror of your mistaken choose.
       You would say, it cannot be and if it is so, it would be a cruelty and an injustice. But after all one must to wake you up! YOU WAS BORN FOR THE LIFE, BUT YOU HAVE CHOSEN A DEATH. YOU ARE LIVING AN INCOMPLETE LIFE, BREATHING AN INCOMPLETE BREATH, IN YOUR EYES THERE IS NO SPARK.
       However the death, you've chosen, is comparable to a deep sleep and the more soundly you are sleeping, the more actively the Awaking will be acting.
       One day you have done a wrong choice, and the more actively you are persisting in it, the more clearly you will see your error.
       BECAUSE THE LIFE WAS GIVEN TO YOU FOR YOU WOULD LEARN LESSONS.
       And your error, your lesson not learnt will be appearing in front of you more and more close-up and each time it will be more and more disgusting. And... one day you will understand all.
       Passing several circles the ever increasing sufferings, you will look for the way out and try to force all the doors.
       Many doors will be closed, but if you seek well, and you will be forced to seek well, once you will snatch at the door, which is opened.
       Then you will remember as one called you, but you didn't go. Then you will learn that you spent your time in vain. Haven't you better to leave for the Way just now?
     
Next chapter: http://antisovietique.blogspot.ru/2012/10/highland-chapter-2-new-song.html

The original Russian text: http://www.proza.ru/2009/12/20/999